stupid octopus face.
at times you srsly irritates the shit outta me, at times you just melt my heart. like melted cheese.
please tell me it aint true ):

missing the girls )):

havent felt this way in a LONG time.
waiting for his message, hoping that he would call.
and the fact that he doesn't know. omggggggg.
he said he's washing his car. haaa. wonder wonder wonder.

life's been pretty good.
thanks to that octopus face (jacob) being ard.
to friends that stick by me.
and the fact that your last msg totally reflects how i felt.

don't make me choose, he will always be the one.
yes, this is how i feel for now.

quick B, msg me back! hahaha

i'm guessing its really over now.
i'll be strong, exams are just round the corner and i cant afford to screw up.
i cant break down now. (:

why do i feel lost?

where were you when i needed you the most.
when i'm so lost and tired, i cant even count on you to be there.
not even a single word, nothing but coldness.

so, who can i turn to?

up down left right.
the weekend has been a rollercoaster. especially sat.
can this change last for long?

i have been told i need to be more tactful.

tact·ful (tākt'fəl)
adj. Possessing or exhibiting tact; considerate and discreet: a tactful person; a tactful remark.
tact'ful·ly adv., tact'ful·ness n.

tact (tākt)
–noun

1.	a keen sense of what to say or do to avoid giving offense; skill in dealing with difficult or delicate situations.

2.	a keen sense of what is appropriate, tasteful, or aesthetically pleasing; taste; discrimination.

3.	touch or the sense of touch.

considering the above definitions, i think i have been pretty tactful with everyone else.
I do not go around shooting my mouth off and offending 134585984 others. that's what i normally do. i think before i speak. at least i try to.

then again how do you be tactful when what you want to say to make your point is in itself already offensive, and have a high tendency to annoy and anger the other party?
i.e. the content itself is already offensive and there's no other softer way to bring it across, if not the meaning would have been lost in all the rephrasing and what nots.
so, how do you go about doing it?

and the thing about waiting for a better timing?
what if that's already the best and most appropriate? by waiting it could have made matter worse? or there wouldn't be another opportunity to say it anymore?

so, how do you actually be more tactful under these circumstances?

everything's going on as usual,
school, projects, home, sleep. and so the cycle continues.
there's something missing in the equation.

at times, i think i just shut off.
distance myself from everything that matters.

gosh, sounding so emonemoelmo.
looking forward to seeing lao huang tmm tho (:

holding on is hard,
letting go is even harder.

are you going to break your promise just like that?
if i don't put in the effort, who will?
maybe one day, when i cant hold on anymore, when it gets too tiring... maybe..
i don't understand how could you have such a strong hold on me.

need to get my ass moving and get things done.
self-improvements.
it's time to grow up and move on (:

i think i might just start blogging again (:
so much have changed, and how much i have grown since the last time i blogged.

i just wished that i could have a nice book in hand, settled in my warm comfy bed and read through the night. without upsetting thoughts interrupting now and again.

dont we all wished we had something to fall back on, something to look forward to, something to brighten up your day? at least i do.